This morning it was easy to get up. Unbelievable...mainly because last night I was pretty sure that I was entitled to sleep in since Drew didn't have to go to school today, so Noah was the only child to get out the door. And boy, is that boy independent. He is usually dressed, jacket on, backpack on, and fed at least 35 minutes before our sweet neighbor picks him up! So yes, I felt I could sleep in today. But I woke up at 6:30, gearing to go. Instead of fighting to go back to sleep, I just got up, crept as silently as I could downstairs, made a cup of coffee, and sat to be with my Savior. I'm going through Beth Moore's "Believing God" study right now. I prayed this morning that God would reveal something new to me and help me apply it to my life.
He delivered, and in a mighty way.
The title of today's lesson was "Something from Nothing" and the whole premise of the entire study is believing God is who He says He is. And He says He is God, and through faith, I believe that with my whole heart. The first way God identifies Himself in His Word is as Creator.
In my study today, I learned the Hebrew meaning of "create" and "formed". The Hebrew word for "created" is bara which means something created from nothing. The Hebrew word for "formed" is yatsar which can represent something formed from previously existing materials. So that in the creation of man alone is fascinating to me...but that's not where I'm going with this.
My struggle lately has been the condition of my heart...basically the ugly, nasty, gross sin that resides there and I just can't let go. That sin I'm talking about is the greediness I feel at times, the anger that spews out over nothing, the inner struggle of frustration over nothing, jealousy over those who have it more together than I do, not being satisfied with the way God made me...the list goes on and is not fun to carry around in my heart.
In my study, Beth directs us to Psalm 51:10...
"Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me."
The word "create" in this verse is the word bara. This means God creates clean hearts out of nothing. God does not "form" clean hearts out of our righteous acts or our disciplines. He creates them out of nothing. Nothing. All He wants is our repentance and our desire to be blameless and pure before Him. This alone makes my heart rejoice today. This alone is why I eagerly jumped out of bed this morning to be with Him. He knew exactly what this scarred heart needed and now I know how to make it new. What a blessed day!
My sweet (yes, I said sweet...the girl is growing on me again!!) little Lindley joined me at the end of my studying, and all I could think about at that point is that I can't wait until she is old enough to know the truth of God's Word and to understand it in her heart.